Saturn is about to move out of Scorpio for good within the next week! It'll happen officially on September 17. And let’s all just breathe a sigh of relief! I think few Saturn transits have been collectively harder on us than Saturn in Scorpio, especially for you lovely folks who’ve been enduring your Saturn Return.
I have a special soft spot for people with Saturn in Scorpio. I have the Moon in Scorpio and it’s my theory that a person with the Moon in a sign just really gets someone with Saturn in that sign and vice versa. Why? Both planets are about fear and insecurity, as well as learning how to find that security, in different ways. The Moon’s fear is more of an emotional thing; it’s reactionary, irrational and based on past experiences. Saturn’s fear is sort of like an existential dread; is there ever going to be enough and will things work out and will I be good enough?
For those who’ve been having your Saturn Return in Scorpio, the past two and a half years have been teaching you about your fears and doubts around control. All sorts of crazy, overwhelming stuff has been happening in your life to make you somehow feel powerless. What kind of stuff that is depends on the house your Scorpio Saturn is in. If it’s in the 7th, there was a lot of relationship stuff outside of your control. In the 3rd, communications and little stuff in your neighborhood or with your siblings made you feel powerless. And all those fears you’ve been dealing with for almost 30 (or almost 60, if you’re of the older Scorpio Saturn generation) years before all came to life.
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But, why did they? In order to make you stronger and realize how much powerlessness is actually an illusion. Real power can’t be taken away. So, if you’ve just experienced your Saturn Return in Scorpio, you dealt with various things that had to do with your external, false power being robbed or diminished or whatever else. And you, hopefully, came to the realization that you have a deeper, much more valuable form of power within. That kind of power – the internal variety – can never be robbed from you. So, in spite of all that you’ve lost and endured, this time has been a challenge to dig deep and discover the amazing gold that’s been inside of your soul all along.
Now, I’ve been impacted hugely by this transit, as well. Even though it wasn’t my Saturn Return, Saturn made a transiting conjunction to my Moon and Pluto and Midheaven in Scorpio, while moving from my 9th to my 10th (the very top of my chart) near the end of the transit. And did I get some sort of awesome promotion and all that cliché stuff that’s supposed to happen when Saturn moves through your 10th? No, but I did get fired for the first time in my whole life. And I can truly say it was through no fault of my own. It was because my boss and I didn’t see eye-to-eye on my work; something out of my control.
From about mid-2013 to late 2014, Saturn in Scorpio really pulled the rug out from under me. I’d always prided myself on being this unstoppable force of nature who could achieve virtually any goal he set out to achieve. And that actually seemed to work for me, in the past, the majority of the time. I could push and push and push until I got what I wanted. And then, feel like a winner.
Well, what did Saturn in Scorpio do? It humbled the hell out of me by showing me, “Hey, you can’t go through life always expecting to get what you want just because you’re relentless about it.” The world often has other plans. So, that harsh Saturn reality came knocking, when I was fired and jobless, when a creative project of mine publicly collapsed and fell through, in spite of me putting a ton of hard work and promotion into it, and when I filled out countless applications for a new day job and landed a big, fat zero. I was so shocked, and felt so lacking in control, that it knocked the wind right out of me. It felt like cruel fate and it was depressing and confusing that the approach that once made me feel so powerful wasn’t working anymore.
But, that was the purpose of Saturn in Scorpio: to show us all what wasn’t working anymore. Anyone else with any personal Scorpio planets might have felt a similar sense of constantly being undercut. In hindsight, I can now clearly see why all of that had to happen. With that combination in Scorpio, the compulsive need for me, in the past, was for power and not in the righteous way that would empower other people. Just power for myself; to feel big and bad because I conquered something. And as much as my so-called “failures” stung back then, I realize that they were exactly what I needed. Saturn was disciplining me to turn the focus away from what I was getting and achieving and focus on what I could give to the world.
So, it’s fitting that I only started to make money again when I began doing readings in late last year. It was in the last degrees of Saturn in Scorpio. I actually only started it because I had so much free time on my hands and I just thought I could use something to do. And I really wanted to help other people figure themselves out (same reason why I became so active on this blog), as I had been forced to embark on a deeper, more challenging journey of introspection during Saturn in Scorpio than ever. And trust me, as someone who has lived with a Scorpio Moon for every day of his life, that’s saying something! It’s near the end of a transit that we can make sense of it and come to peace with it. And it’s like Saturn in Scorpio saw what I was doing and felt that I was finally getting the message, allowing my little business to grow and allowing this blog to get a lot more support.
It was also Jupiter moving through Leo and pulling me out of that huge funk as it crossed my Sun. But, I actually never took the opportunity to go overboard with my ego, as some might predict a person with a Leo Sun would when Jupiter transits Leo. I learned such a lesson in humility during Saturn in Scorpio that I don’t think I could ever have that kind of attitude again. I really did grow up a lot! Life’s not all about getting what I want now. And, at the same time, just like people who went through their Saturn Return in Scorpio, I learned the source of my true power. It’s on the inside and how far I get in the world doesn’t give me my power. It can’t be given to or taken from me.
And, as a result, I generally don’t believe in failure anymore. I didn’t spend that year or so failing because I never gave up. Even when I didn’t want to get out of bed and even when I felt totally emotionally exhausted, I didn’t give up. I always strove to find some sort of focus; something to ground me and stay productive and I did. And as Saturn has retrograded back into Scorpio, it’s felt like a very different transit. It hasn’t exactly been smooth sailing. I’ve been feeling some pressure and I’m always busy and frequently falling short of getting everything done. But, overall, it’s been great. I think now is the time I’m being rewarded because I didn’t throw in the towel or remain a bitter victim through the first round of Saturn in Scorpio. Things seem way more promising now.
So, Saturn moving through my 10th has made me truly believe that the only failure is giving up and letting your present situation determine your whole future. Success is a very internal thing for me now; a feeling that isn’t dependent on anything or anyone else but me. Thanks, Saturn in Scorpio, for the lessons you brought me, even if I hated you for it, sometimes. You made me stronger than I ever thought I was before. Until we meet again in 2040.