Wednesday, December 16, 2015

North Node in Aquarius: The Free-Spirited Soul



***Also for if you have North Node in the 11th House

The North Node in Aquarius is arguably one of the most wonderful placements for the North Node that you could have. I’m not just saying that because this is my North Node sign. Aquarius is such an advanced, progressive energy. And the North Node is about learning how to progress and grow. Therefore, the process tends to be sped up with Aquarius North Node individuals. We become very attuned, early on, to something bigger than ourselves. Aquarius is future-oriented and having the North Node in this sign means that you can truly see a vision of yourself being a better, bigger person. In order to reach this higher self, we are overcoming the trap of our egos.

When a person has an Aquarius North Node, they also have a Leo South Node. So, we are coming from a past of wanting recognition for being special and amazing. In a past lives’ context, we were very important people in our most recent past life. We fed off of the admiration, the applause, and the attention of other people. Leo South Node individuals were most likely famous in their past life, as politicians, performers, or public figures. We might have even been lucky enough to have been a member of royalty. But, even if we weren’t a monarch, we were treated like kings and queens. We ruled in this past life yet the South Node shows issues that occurred in the past life, as well.

Therefore, we ruled with an iron fist or we let the head that held the crown become massive. A person with their South Node in Leo had an out-of-control ego in their past life. It led to arrogant, self-absorbed, domineering, and/or snotty behavior. But, the South Node is what we never let go of in that past life. So, we left that life with a giant ego and came into this one with a giant ego. Our karmic debt, therefore, revolves around taming our self-obsession, which is going to get in the way of a true connection with others. Leo South Node people have huge hearts, which makes us gravitate toward romance and passion. Yet, the passion easily becomes a drama. Did I mention that being highly dramatic is also a problem for this South Node? Because it is. In our past life, there was never a dull moment. We were fantastic actors, either by profession or just by personality, and all the world was our stage. But, did we ever learn to get off stage and turn off the drama? Not really.

Now, you might not believe in past lives. Yet, you can still look back and see how your Leo South Node dominated your past in this life with its bad habits. Our worst habits come from acting as if we are the center of everything. We can behave as if we are the protagonist of some dramatic movie that will never end. This not only makes us self-absorbed but it’s going to make us treat everyone else as if they need to play their part. We can all too easily give people roles to play because we are constantly playing the role we feel we need to in order to gain that applause or be special. So, South Node in Leo makes us easily disappointed, annoyed, or even outraged when others aren’t giving a good performance like we are. We can demand that people act like a lover or a best friend or a colleague is “supposed” to act, instead of just giving people the freedom to be individuals.

What happens because of that? Well, we never really get the fulfillment of acting out this drama that we seek. Being the center of attention and trying to get everything and everyone to bend to our will is just going to make us feel empty. This has been a challenging yet interesting lesson for me because I have my Leo Sun conjunct my South Node. Therefore, I have identified (Sun) so much with being the Leo superstar that it’s been hard for me to realize how self-defeating that’s been. The Universe is set up to deny us our South Node, if we go to extremes with it. Now, I firmly believe that people should not “leave behind” their South Node. There are excellent things about the South Node. But, to access those more positive traits, you have to be balanced out by your North Node.

That’s where we get to the Aquarius North Node. While the South Node is the more comfortable, familiar soul-expression for you, the North Node is the higher, more enlightened soul-expression. And it’s not exactly that you’re “learning” to be your North Node. It’s just that you are developing more conscious awareness of the North Node because it’s already in you. It develops through a constant dissatisfaction with your South Node. That’s the funny thing about everyone’s South Node. We cling to it even when it doesn’t make us happy. The South Node is like that job that gives you basic security but isn’t fulfilling. The North Node is like the job that you really want to do but might have pushed it to the back of your mind because it’ll take you out of your comfort zone.

Aquarius North Node people have to be very humbled by life in order to access this part of themselves. After a lifetime of pursuing the superstar role, of trying to be widely adored, of attempting to find that life-defining passion with someone else, we will still come up short somehow. Maybe we don’t find that fame or recognition we searched for. Maybe we are continually being ostracized or judged socially. Maybe we end up single for forever or bouncing from one empty love affair to the next. These situations will be painful but they will break down our ego and allow us to develop the ability to care less and less about being fabulous and loved. The more Aquarius North Node is denied the amazing lifestyle that they crave so much, the more they will be able to get in touch with their free-spirited nature and let go of what people think.

So, the higher self of someone with their North Node in Aquarius is capable of not being in it for themselves. When that glorious fame or magical love doesn’t come to us, we master the art of healthy detachment. When people with this placement are in this mode of thinking, they can truly blow wherever the wind takes them. We have a habit of wanting what we want and when we want it, which is what can make us so demanding or spoiled. But, getting in touch with our inner detachment allows us to release what we want. And when we do, greater things end up coming back to us. Therefore, our truest soul-expression allows us to see that life is random and unpredictable. We cannot script it or control it. We just have to have a high tolerance for the chaos.

Aquarius North Node people also rise above their self-obsession when they stop worrying about their “celebrity.” At the same time, we will always be quite self-aware. That’s the foundation that our Leo South Node gives us. With my Sun on my South Node, as well, I’ll never exactly lose my self-regard. But, this can just be expressed as an amazing self-awareness, knowing exactly who we are. Then, we experience true self-confidence. When we’re unbalanced with our Leo South Node, we are just faking the confidence, when in reality we’re very obsessed with others’ approval. But, when we evolve and consciously express our Aquarius North Node, other people’s approval becomes much less important. We have the acceptance and love that really matters: the self-love of our South Node in Leo. So, we stop trying hard and we learn to just coolly rest in that inner confidence, without having to put on such a show. We don’t get anywhere when we try hard, anyway, because people have a way of sensing it and seeing it as an obsessive performance, which it is.

Therefore, developing that true self-confidence makes us want to make other people the superstars. Our fame stops being important to us. Instead, we want to shine a spotlight on what makes other people special. In our less evolved mode, we constantly hit a wall when we try to make our specialness so visible and known. But, through that process, we unconsciously develop the ability to notice what’s wonderful about the people around us and why they’re getting the recognition that we’re not. As a result, the conscious Aquarius North Node is there to applaud others, to show each and everyone that they are a individual worth recognition in their own right. The ego is being transcended, in this stage. We already know we’re special and important. Now, we’re egalitarians, wanting others to know that they have something special and important to offer, as well.

This focus on other people is very important for the Aquarius North Node’s spiritual development. It also helps to focus on higher ideals and causes. Whenever we’re in something just for our own fulfillment, it’s not going to get anywhere. So, with this North Node, your greatest potential comes from being able to contribute something important to society and this world. You must stretch yourself beyond concerns of the self and become focused on concerns of the collective. Are you opening people’s minds? Are you introducing and developing interesting concepts and meaningful projects? Are you helping to change the world around you? This is where your spiritual growth lies. You can no longer be solely concerned with how something in the world affects only you. It’s not just your world anymore. It’s everyone’s world and you just live in it.

North Node in Aquarius people find their true success in being innovative, championing causes, promoting projects, and/or working outside of the mainstream. When you go against the grain, you express your true soul nature. Aquarius North Node individuals are rebels and nonconformists at a soul level. So, you have to allow yourself to go crazy or get weird, without worrying about the response from your “audience.” Your higher self is independent-minded and sort of eccentric, not caring too much what people think. After all, this free-thinking gives you the space to do the innovation and experimentation that you need to do. When you take true charge of yourself via your Leo South Node, without seeking others’ approval, no one will really be able to influence you. And as a result of owning yourself so strongly, you can give other people the freedom to totally be whoever they want to be, within rational limits, and not judge them for it.

So, your greatest soul-expression allows people to feel very accepted and befriended. You can make a wide range of social connections, thanks to your powerful social skills. Aquarius is very friendly and approachable. Yet, the legendary aloofness of this sign is balanced out by the giant heart and deep-seated warmth of your Leo South Node. So, you have enormous charisma at your disposal, as you can blend cool casualness with a lively exuberance and generosity. The fact that you’re such a natural performer also helps you socially and creatively. You are very charming and magnetic, with a lot of presence. Therefore, you’re capable of effortlessly reeling your audience in, no matter how crazy or unusual your presentation is. You know how to command a crowd and have people eating out of your palm. But, at this stage, you’ll be doing it for something beyond the self.

With the North Node in Aquarius, we are meant to understand very advanced topics and concepts. We’re meant to strengthen our intellect and our brilliance. Our soul is tired of the unfulfilling focus on our love life, our clothes, our favorite celebrities, our best attributes, etc. We have to move beyond superficial preoccupations. There is a real genius inside of the soul of every Aquarius North Node. We have to develop this potential, charging up our brainpower with exciting, fascinating, and out-there subjects. People with this North Node exhibit a very powerful interest in anything from astrology to science to technology to the study of human nature. It’s no coincidence that I first got into astrology when I was around 18 and having my North Node Return in Aquarius. It’s become a love affair ever since, getting me increasingly in touch with something bigger than myself. We eventually become avid astrologers, scientists, tech-specialists, or observers of the human condition because of this, blending sharp logic with strange intuition in that Aquarian way.



The more we focus on these things beyond the self, the less of a yearning for drama we will have. Again, there is an objectivity that is required when you have the North Node in Aquarius. It’s not to say that we will no longer be dramatic. There will always be a drama queen or drama king inside of those with this placement because of our South Node in Leo. But, we need to be able to objectively use this dramatic flair. How can we channel this passionate, theatrical energy in ways that will still keep us clear-headed and objective? The answer is through some sort of creative outlet.

Aquarius North Node people are extremely creative. It just comes naturally for us. So, we have to apply that drama to something else. It has no room in our lives. This is what makes us such great performers, in more ways than one. Maybe the outlet for our drama comes from acting, writing, or singing. Maybe it’s through being able to present things to people in entertaining, colorful ways. And when we need to entertain, we absolutely entertain. But, balance with these Nodes comes from being able to use our dramatic side in an impersonal way, snapping into being highly emotional or the center of attention, when needed creatively, and then snapping right back out of it.

The people in our personal lives will be thankful, as it really allows us to chill out. Yet, those with an Aquarius North Node are amazingly chill individuals, even though we’re really crazy, at the same time. But, we must be quirky-crazy, not exhausting-crazy. When we get rid of unnecessary drama, we realize how much better we feel when we keep a cooler head. This also allows us to stop being such love-struck schoolboys and schoolgirls all the time. Thanks to that impassioned Leo South Node, when we crush or fall in love, we crush or fall in love hard, to a point where it’s rather embarrassing. Once those feelings of passion kick in, we start having delusions of grandeur about our love life or our romantic interest. But, when we stop making our life a drama, we remain more objective. We don’t get so caught up in the whirlwind of romance. We will still be loving and sincere and warm. But, that side gets balanced by a cool confidence that not only takes the pressure off of our lover but makes us more attractive to them. When we want the other person too insistently, it can push them away.

As much as we want to be in love and be passionately connected, we have to detach somewhat. Having the North Node in Aquarius means that you cannot base your fulfillment on who you fall in love with. This makes you unbalanced and will keep them from ever really satisfying you. Instead, you have to find your satisfaction through projects, ideals, and causes that keep you engaged with the greater world. When you do, your love life will actually become more satisfying. People with an Aquarius North Node have the soul of a mad scientist, always tinkering away at one experiment or another. And you must remember that you cannot and should not control the results. It’s very easy to try to have your way all the time, with this placement. But, you should be willing to just let things happen. Just see where things go, without some expectation of what should happen. When you creatively and brilliantly live in the chaos, your free spirit within will flourish.

29 comments:

  1. Thank you for this article, it explains a lot...I have this position of North Node and my Sun also there..
    Venus-Pluto sq. woman :))))

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  2. Haha this is so accurate i was smiling through this whole article.

    I have my Mars/Venus conjunct my Leo South Mode, so like your sun conjunction, i too feel that intensity of powered up energy. Being around me is like being in a crazy spanish soap opera, i am bold, dramatic and passionate. I don't know how to boring, dull or bland, in fact that freaks me the fuck out, i would rather die.

    Learning to channel my energy towards humanity and not just myself or my lovers, has been the key for me.

    Beautiful article thank you :)

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    1. Haha, I agree. With a Leo South Node, we definitely need an outlet for all that energy. Our Aquarius North Node makes us brilliant at it once we channel our passion into it and chill out elsewhere.

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  3. I have this placement conjunct my IC in the fourth house. This is one of the best posts I've read regarding an Aquarius North Node. Astrology is a passion of mine and I got into it when I was in high school. I also have a Sun/Uranus conjunction and both the Moon and Venus in Aquarius as well.

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  4. Thanks! It looks like you have a really strong Aquarius energy, in general. So, all of those placements are going to really help you embrace your North Node, especially with it conjunct the IC, because it's a deep part of how you felt when you grew up. This spiritual growth will feel very safe and homey for you!

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  5. Pluto in Leo in the 12th house, Venus and Mars in Aquarius in the 5th house, Gemini midheaven, Sag Sun in the 4th...North Node in Aquarius in the 5th...I was talented in all of the arts from a young age...often denied recognition for my efforts, consistently humbled by life...Have known my astrology for many years now...Studied myself closely, so I could understand. I am a writer, by profession...One of my duties and my joys is to profile others in my company, putting the spotlight literally and figuratively on them. I have always been uncomfortable with the idea of being under the spotlight myself, but when I find myself there (and I do mean an actual stage spotlight), I seem to come alive. I write screenplays on the side, so I'm getting my drama needs met. My stories speak to the wounds we all share (Virgo rising) and I have a strong desire to serve the world, in this way...It's the time of the wounded healer...One astrologer I love says it's time for the wounded warriors to all return home to their tribes to be healed....Loved your essay. Resonated with me deeply. Thanks so much. :-)

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    1. Hello! It's very interesting that you have your Aquarius North Node in Leo's house. Whenever the Nodes are "flip-flopped" like that, there's a very thin line between them. So, you are actually supposed to embrace the spotlight yet do it in a way that doesn't make it about you, at the same time. So, being highly creative and expressive in a way that aims to impact or help other people, like in your writing, instead of just get the glory for yourself, sounds like the way to go! :)

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    2. Wow. That's what I needed to hear. I've had a lot of confusion about that fine line and I don't want to screw this up. :-) Your words couldn't come at a better time. Thanks, Wayman.

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  6. How would you comment on Leo South Node conjunct the Rising sign in First House? The North Node in Aquarius is also in exact trine with my Libra Sun.

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  7. Great read! NN Aq.in 4th cong. IC with SN cong Pluto & MC in 9th, both in aspect to Aries Moon & Gemini Sun & Venus (trines & sextiles). Still working on humility and acceptance of others "Just As They Are"... it's easier sometimes than others.

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  8. I'm not mad scientist. I'm not creative. I never wanted to be famous and i hate drama. I'm humble and shy person. And i'm not rich. People always are taking advantage of me. Guys used me for money and sex. I don't have good relationships with my family. Only with my mom (which what is funny she is leo sun and she is my best friend). Actualy i don't know what i did in that leo south node past life, but my life in present sucks. I can't find way out and my life purpose. (I'm 26 already). So having that aquarian north node is nuisance.

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    1. No offense but you sound highly dramatic, which is nothing I can knock you for. This is my problem in life too. Though you say you hate drama, if you really did, you wouldn't see your life with such a lack of objectivity. You just listed a ton of negative and no positive.

      I'm not doubting that your life can be hard. But, we Leo South Nodes have such powerful creative energy (and you do, whether you believe it or not) that life ends up being exactly how we picture it. That's true for everyone but very, very true for us. We have to be very careful what we wish for. We will live out the exact drama we see life as being.

      And my guess is also that, in spite of your shyness, you live with a feeling of somehow not getting your due or what you deserve. But, you'll never be truly satisfied with this Node until you focus on something bigger than your personal desires.

      So, use astrology to gain an upper hand and change your life, instead of wallowing in negativity. It's not easy but you can do it.

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    2. You're not doing any service by telling her that she is "wallowing in negativity".Let people express their experiences their own way....even if it doesn't match your optimistic new age beliefs.

      Doesn't matter if people change perspective. Life is still suffering.

      You sound highly disrespectful.

      To the girl,use the intellect and intuition.To see things as they are, it leads to freedom. But it's about balance.I'm 26 with Sun in 7th and Aquarius north node 4th house. Mom with Leo Sun. Lol.

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    3. No one's being disrespectful. If I was, I would have insulted her and called her names. I am merely giving my honest perspective. And no one is saying life isn't suffering. But I personally cannot help anyone who does nothing but complain. Because most of the time, that person just wants to suffer and stay in that place of being a victim.

      I do what I can to help others, to give them solutions and empower them to make a change. That's why I write my articles the way I do. And I was genuinely trying to help her and even relate to her (as I said that I have a problem with being very dramatic as well). It really doesn't matter to me if you agree. There are other blogs for you to read if you don't. :)

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  9. Oh you Leo's and Leo South Nodes! I can't live with you and I can't live without you! 😁
    I was married to a Leo for 20 years and since then I keep attracting more. The last 3 men in my life had Leo SN. Even at their age they still haven't been able to cut the big ego but gosh their just so damn lovable 😁

    Aries Sun and Moon woman ;)))

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    1. Haha. Do you have a Leo Descendant or 7th House Sun by chance? Because, if you do, that could explain it.

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  10. Very helpful information thankyou

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  11. My north node is in Aquarius and my rising sign is Leo. What do you think ?

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  12. My north node is in virgo in the 11th house (In vedic it's in leo in the 11th house)! I want to become a performer or a writer because the arts are my passion. I also want to inspire people with my art, help people through their struggles, donate large sums of money to charities. Like how Beyonce does! She's so inspirational and does charity work too! My MC is conjunct her north node by a 0.03 degree orb! 😁 What do you think?

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    1. Lol, I'm a North Node Pisces 11th. I find soooo hard not to accomplish the South Node energy! Yours sounds like a good idea though

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  13. This article is so true, I feel as someone just slap me at my face and say "cut it out".

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  14. Excellent article. Describes my own nodal placements perfectly! Erin (Aqu Sun, MC, NN) - also an astrologer

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  15. Ugh, I really hate this North Node. I don't like to be the "awkward", secluded one.

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    1. Just take solace in your natural Leo South Node confidence. Aquarius North Nodes are meant to feel on the outside, looking in, to some extent. But, don't worry about being a weirdo or a freak because of this. This is my North Node and it was an issue for me for a long time, too, until I just learned to give myself approval. Now, I don't have any hang-ups about being different and find it empowering and fulfilling.

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  16. This is such a lovely article, it explains so much, from why I keep trying to get people to focus on me instead of the other way around. Trying to focus on other people is pretty hard in a group though cause there are lots of people to think about, and they'd be trying to focus on others as well.

    I feel a tad stuck with this placement, still do even though I am trying very hard to understand it and trying to do more things that are associated with aquarius such as texting all my friends frequently and asking them how they are, but then from there is a blur. I really don't know when I am asserting myself and when I am being dramatic. I also don't know what to focus on.

    But yours is an amazing article, it has more information for me than published books and it really helped me a lot in what I can improve on.

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    1. As far as the friendship thing, I think Aquarius is definitely more about friendliness than tight-knit friendship. It's like knowing everyone and talking to everyone but still having the space and freedom to do your own thing. In fact, Aquarius is pretty notorious for being out-of-touch with people for long stretches (not a consistent texter or caller!). But, Aquarius will pick things up where they left off very easily. Leo, on the other hand, is more about loyalty in a passionate, special way, often playing favorites. "Let's be really close and do everything together!" That actually gets on Aquarius' nerves after awhile because it's very binding.

      With my Leo South Node/Sun in the 7th, I've actually always conducted my friendships like that in the past, to a point where it was hard for me to extend myself to anyone else than those special people. But, I've realized that my North Node in Aquarius actually really loves the feeling of knowing everyone and making a lot of casual friendships and social connections. I like the feeling of getting to connect with the majority of people. But, it takes that meaning of "friendship" and makes it more detached and with a lot less expectation or pressure.

      Yet, I don't really feel bad for being this way anymore, where I used to think it was kind of disloyal or shallow. Really, it's just what my North Node needs. Also, being able to connect to people on the Internet (like I'm doing right now!) Anything that allows me to observe and understand and relate to people but at a distance. It's way more fulfilling to me and gives me my space to breathe. So, that's a way of life you should invest in. And maybe that's where you're "stuck" because you're looking at friendship in an overly personal way. To be honest, I wouldn't even want to spend a ton of exclusive time with or energy on my best friends (and things have worked out, with this placement, where we've had to live far apart or can only occasionally visit/hang out). As much as I love them, I can't function that way.

      And the drama thing? It's tough for me, too, because I'm such a Leo, by nature! But, going on an obsessive rant (internally or out loud) about what someone has done to me or about who they are as a person is a big indicator I'm being dramatic. Also, jumping to conclusions, assuming things, or putting too much emphasis on how I feel and not them. Those are all things I'm learning to curb and I'm figuring out how to just pay attention to the information about the person or situation, with no judgments.

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  17. Well done mate. Fantastic article. I'm Sun sign Leo/cancer cusp same as south node, with NN Aquarius in 4th house. 26yr old. I'm learning all about this now but just need to take the next step to focus outward rather than on myself. I'd love to teach. Need to figure out how to channel these energies outward now for the greater good. I've been so selfish and dramatic. This article was so accurate! Amazing stuff really

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