Wednesday, November 30, 2016

My Birth Chart

August 8, 1989
7:20 PM
Little Rock, AR

Sun in Leo
     Sun in the 7th House; conjunct South Node, square Pluto
Moon in Scorpio
     Moon in the 9th; conjunct Pluto, sextile Mercury, Saturn, Neptune, trine Jupiter
Aquarius Ascendant
     Moon square Ascendant

Saturday, November 19, 2016

North Node in the 1st House: A New Attitude

People often want to know what the difference is between having the North Node in a sign and in the house that rules that sign. It’s not exactly the same, even though there will be certain similarities. So, having the North Node in the 1st is not exactly the same as an Aries North Node. Yet, there were still be many similarities, including the imperative to be your own person and go down your own path, regardless of what someone else says, does, or thinks. Those of us with a 1st House North Node (and this is a placement of my own) have to express and live out that Aries-like sense of independence and initiative, not needing to live through other people or have someone else by our side to feel complete. 

When you have the North Node in the 1st, you need to not be defined by anyone but yourself. The problem is that people with this placement come from a past where other people heavily defined them. I mean that in both ways, such as they feeling more complete or assured when depending on someone else, emotionally or mentally, and having other people tell you who you are and who you should be. Since the 1st House is our own individual point of view that we view and approach life with, having the North Node in the 1st means that what you really want out of this lifetime is to have your own point of view on just about everything, including yourself. When you assume this brand new attitude, you will be able to do whatever you want to do. 

There will be many people who have this placement and actually have their North Node in the sign that follows their Ascendant. If that’s the case, it’s like you came into this life and took on a role that wasn't right for you (this is also why I swear by Placidus because it tells a much more complex and interesting story of a person’s life, instead of looking at it all too neatly and simply). It may take a while but when you finally realize that you were actually meant to live as the North Node sign, instead of the preceding sign that the Ascendant is in, you really grow as a person. If you have a 1st House North Node in the same sign as your Ascendant (and even conjunct the Ascendant), you just weren’t really given the right set of tools to be like that sign. Either way, whether we were forced into being someone we didn’t want to be or were not given the right direction to be who we wanted, we are now being summoned to live how we want to live.

Since we are highly experienced in our South Node house, it only makes sense that our early life is quite devoid of the concerns of our North Node house. The South Node is, after all, your past. I don’t just say “past life” because it is also your past in this life. So, with the North Node in the 1st, you have the South Node in the 7th. Therefore, the early part of your life is spent thinking a lot about how your actions affect other people. And if you believe in past lives, this is because you came into this life with a lot of past-life experience in relationships. However, this manifests in an unbalanced way early in life, leaving your 1st House to be neglected.

One of the many things that the 1st House represents is the first several years of a person’s life. This is when we are just behaving solely according to our impulses and desires. Having the North Node in the 1st usually means that you did not have an opportunity to act on your impulses and desires very much, if at all. Children with this placement typically do not get to just go through this phase of life without worrying about the consequences or how people will react. All kids should be conditioned to behave a certain way, for sure. But, with this placement, that conditioning was so the child could be a true mirror of what the parent wanted them to be. 

1st House North Node children do not kick and scream and shout to get their way. In fact, they are not at all concerned with having their way, which can actually be quite a developmental issue, since kids are supposed to learn how and when to say “no” during this time. Even if it can be a bit tough on the parents, it’s still healthy, in moderation. However, kids with this placement usually don’t say “no”. It was all about being agreeable and just getting along with the parent. In this way, those of us with North Node in the 1st learn how to be good at relationships basically right after we learn how to talk. We figure out how to just be really nice, agreeable kids who don’t rock the boat, who compromise, don’t have ugly or upsetting temper tantrums, and are just easy to deal with.

Because we don’t figure out how to separate ourselves from others, starting with the parents, we don’t figure out our own vision of things. So, in terms of the actual Ascendant, with this placement, it can be something that is either forced upon us (if it’s in a different sign than the North Node) or something that was not encouraged at all (if it’s in the same sign). I did not have a progressive, open-minded, free-for-all kind of early environment, a la Aquarius. I was not given much room to think for myself or just be myself without any pressure. True to the South Node in Leo in the 7th on top of my Sun, I felt required to do a ton of “performing” and was always conscious of the “reviews” that performance was getting. 

But, I always say that the North Node is something that is not learned. We don’t pull these traits out of thin air. They are brewing inside of us and just need to be acknowledged, accessed, and let out into the light. And they end up developing and growing inside of us because of the imbalance of our South Node and a dissatisfaction with what it has to offer us. So, there is only so much “playing nice” that the 1st House North Node can do. Our North Node is so powerful that it ends up emerging in certain ways, even when we don’t mean for it to. I feel like most North Node in the 1st people grow up acting out some sort of unconscious rebellion, some stomping of their feet and saying “no” finally, to the chagrin of the adults around them. 

Basically, kids and adolescents with this placements are generally goody two shoes who feel compelled to act out or go bad in some way or on some level. For me, it was in school. There were many times where I could have gotten straight A’s and I just did not care. I wouldn’t study, I wouldn’t pay attention in class, I hated doing most projects. Yet, I was still “nice” about it and not an actual brat in my behavior. This is a phase that’s taken on with a passive-aggressive spirit for those with this placement. The child or teenager isn’t actually screaming at their parents or showing blatant disrespect. They don’t seem like they are trying to be a troublemaker and probably still feel a lot of guilt or pressure to be good. But, underneath all of that, is this yearning to say “No, I’m going to do what I want and I’m sick of being who you want me to be.”

This carries on into adulthood and ends up coming out even more powerfully because when we reach maturity is when we are capable of really owning and expressing our North Node. So, it’s around the late 20’s or early 30’s that those of us with the 1st House North Node learn that it’s alright to do whatever we want. We are being given permission to by the Universe, as it wants us to succeed at our North Node and puts us on track to do so. We are being allowed to put our desires first and to not be overly concerned with how it is going to affect other people. To a certain extent, we are being allowed to be like small children, that phase of life symbolized by the 1st House, acting on and trusting our impulses and not worrying that much about the consequences. Just do it! 

I’m not saying take that to a dangerous or stupid extreme. Do think about certain consequences, of course. But, for the North Node in the 1st person, this reliance on our own instincts and our own point of view means that we don’t have to be preoccupied with what’s going to happen or where it’s going to lead us. Just following our impulses will lead us in the right direction. So, that means letting go of the nice guy or good girl role that we have spent so much time living up to. It doesn’t mean that we won’t be nice people anymore because the 1st House North Node person will always have a sweet, goodhearted charm underneath it all. But, we spend so much time trying to make people think the best of us and by trying to be the most appealing version of our South Node sign possible. Now, it’s about just being the North Node sign, whether that’s “good” or not. We have to let go of those preconceived notions of how to behave. 

The best way to put it is that you are allowed to express some of your North Node sign’s not-so-great qualities. If you have the North Node in Taurus in the 1st, you are allowed to have your moments of being stubborn, self-indulgent, or even flat-out lazy. If you have the 1st House North Node in Capricorn in the 1st, you are being given permission to be occasionally stern and tough-loving or to put your career first. Sagittarius North Node in the 1st? You’re allowed to not have a filter, to be kind of careless, to just keep moving forward and rarely look back. In the end, you expressing these traits isn’t you being a “bad person.” But, you have spent more than enough time trying to be good and trying to make everyone happy. Now, you just need to make you happy.

For me, with North Node in Aquarius in the 1st, I feel like I am allowed to keep a certain distance and detachment, even when it’s not the nicest thing to do. I’m so bighearted and generous, so it has been my pattern in the past to create that special closeness with people and be close to them and only them. But, that never works. The Universe actually wants me to prioritize my ideals and my causes first. I’m very friendly and love people as a whole but I’m also being allowed to not focus too much on particular people because, sorry, you’re not more special than anyone else. That is Aquarius’ major flaw, as is being quite inconsistent and unpredictable; another pattern that I’m being allowed to indulge in. But, to have the 1st House North Node is to behave in a way that is totally honest to that North Node sign, flaws and all, instead of trying to create the prettiest and most appealing package that will get you liked by everyone. 

However, when we focus on our North Node, we get what our South Node wants. So, 1st House North Node people are actually more likable when we don’t care about being likable. It’s when I play it cool, follow my own random rhythm, and keep a certain distance that I end up getting the most praise from people, whereas trying so earnestly to be praised always falls flat. For Taurus North Node in the 1st, trying to be so deeply connected with others won’t work too well. It’s when you remain focused on your own simple, stable affairs that people will feel most passionately about you. Capricorn North Node in the 1st House will allow you to find that sensitive, responsive, caring rapport with others when you stay strong and just focus on handling your own business. 

The 7th House represents our partnerships in life and the South Node being here means that we not only have been constantly seeking some sort of partner but have constantly been molding ourselves into the perfect partner in the past, whether it’s for a significant other, a close friend, a relative, whoever else. But, we now need to turn in the direction of just being an individual. When we focus on just being recognized as our North Node sign, regardless of what people will say about it, then we will end up attracting the people into our lives who can provide us with that partnership to automatically balance our energies out. With these people, we can safely express some of our South Node qualities, just as long as we remember that this life of ours is not a lifetime about partnerships. So, as lovely as your romantic partner or best friend may be, do not live for them or through them (another trait of this placement can be actually taking on the personal qualities of others, often to serve as the perfect reflection of them in order to be liked). 

Instead, this is a lifetime that’s about living for yourself. The 1st House North Node is probably the easiest house placement of the Nodes to describe because you just have to act like the sign that the North Node is in. My suggestion is for you to think of yourself as the Rising sign that correlates with your 1st House North Node. Obviously, if you have a Taurus Rising and a 1st House Taurus North Node, that’s pretty simple. But, your Ascendant may be in Aries or even in Pisces, if the 1st is really intercepted. In this case, you need to think of yourself as more of a Taurus Ascendant. Your actual birth chart isn’t going to change. But, I’m talking about just altering the way you live and see yourself. This is the energy you came here to embody and be recognized as. You will probably find that the more you become comfortable with your North Node, the more you will seem like you have the Ascendant in the sign it’s in. When you have the North Node in the 1st, you get to define yourself.

Monday, November 14, 2016

The Astrology of the US Presidential Election

Hi, sorry for being MIA for the past couple of weeks. I think I just needed some time to recharge and not write any articles. Then, of course, the Presidential Election happened last week and that ended up occupying more of my attention. 

I spent some time thinking about how I wanted to address what’s happened. I wanted to say something right away but paused and thought it over. As I said in a post last month, this is not a platform for my views and things can get ugly when politics gets involved. But, I’m not going to be cowardly about it, either. 

I’m an American and I voted for Clinton. I did not vote for Trump (and there wasn’t a chance in Hell I ever would) and for reasons that I am not going to go into on here. I will say that this event has made my political awareness skyrocket virtually overnight. My interest had been growing over the past year and now it’s a top priority. It’s making me really want to get involved, which I have already been doing, and no longer stand on the sidelines and be overly neutral. I can see that as being the gradual evolution of my 1st House Aquarius North Node, since Aquarius often makes a difference and taps into the big picture concerns by being very political and quite opinionated about it. 

If you don’t like that I voted for Clinton, I do not care. If you are looking for a political debate, take that elsewhere. You’ll be deleted or ignored or dismissed if you bring it to this page. There are plenty of other opportunities online or in real life for you to argue about opinions and ideologies. I am outspoken about my actual political views on this whole ordeal elsewhere. But, like I said, I am not going to go into the reasons why I don’t like Trump on here because this is an astrology blog. I also do not want to tiptoe around the subject because being totally quiet about it and avoiding it is not an option either because that’d just be fake. So, if you have a problem with that, either get over it or find another blog to read. All that being said, I’m writing this to look at it solely in astrological terms. 

What I am seeing through this election is transiting Neptune in Pisces having a very powerful impact. Neptune has been in Pisces since 2012 but it honestly has been hard for me to figure out the impact of it on a societal and global scale before now. The outer planets have an effect on the movements and events occurring in society during the time period of their transit through a sign. Pisces, in and of itself, can be quite subtle, mysterious, and hard to pin down. I feel like the Pisces Neptune hasn’t had too much of a chance to hit home until the transiting North Node entered Virgo. The Virgo North Node formed an exact opposition to the Pisces Neptune around Election Day, meaning that Neptune is exactly conjunct the transiting South Node in Pisces. 

True to the spirit of Neptune, it’s been an overwhelming, chaotic time. Lots of people reacted to the news of the Election as if it were a dream, a surreal experience that one wanted to snap out of. Neptune rules the surreal and dream-like. But, the North Node tells us the path we should walk in order to grow. The South Node, meanwhile, carries consequences when we indulge in it. Having Neptune not only in Pisces but conjunct the South Node means indulging in lies, deception, taking advantage of others or being taken advantage of. I’m only 27 and I was an adolescent during the Bush years (most of which happened when Uranus was in Pisces). But, I cannot remember an election year, including those two years, that was so unreal and has caused so much confusion. 

We are already seeing Trump change his tune, in certain ways, and tone down certain parts of his rhetoric, to the point where many people are wondering if it was all an act. Did Trump build himself up into someone who could be projected on and idealized by countless people, only for the illusion to later shatter and reveal someone very different, Neptune-style? There is a theory that many people hold that this was all one big bait and switch and that some of his voters may end up disappointed when they figure that out later. Also, the idea that someone could go from hosting a reality television show to being leader of the free world and with zero experience in politics is quite surreal in and of itself. 

In terms of Hillary, there was also so much question about her regarding what was the truth and what was not, to a point that ended up influencing many votes. Some people have one opinion about her e-mail scandal, some people have another. The mere fact that the FBI launched a new investigation into her e-mails was enough to dissuade many voters, all while we later found that there was nothing incriminating in the messages. When the Piscean vibes are in the air so heavily, it is hard for people to see straight. Let’s also not neglect how polarizing these two individuals are, in and of themselves, which only increases the irrational fervor of both admiration and loathing that they both attracted. 

It all culminated with the Election Day. Also, it is interesting to note that in the coming months, transiting Saturn in Sagittarius is going to be opposing both Trump’s Sun and North Node in Gemini. This naturally means that it will be conjunct his South Node in Sagittarius, which is also conjunct his natal Moon. These high-pressure aspects are happening in loose orbs that will tighten by January as he begins one of the most high-pressure jobs in the entire world. It will be interesting to see how he handles it and what happens in the meantime. But, it seems like the recipe for a lot of personal challenges and obstacles. 

The transiting Saturn conjunct natal Moon is one of the toughest transits you ever go through and with Saturn also on top of his South Node, he will not be able to backslide into any of his negative habits, such as not thinking before he speaks or acting in very dogmatic or self-righteous ways, without feeling the repercussions in a severe manner. Saturn in Sagittarius also demands the truth from us and if the Gemini side of him is just telling people what they want to hear, there could also be a backlash. After being so recklessly opinionated (Sagittarius), how will he now play to both sides (Gemini)? The dichotomy between Gemini and Sagittarius is going to be really prevalent in his life. 

He also has Venus conjunct Saturn in Cancer and it is going to be opposite transiting Pluto in Capricorn, which will get closer and closer in orb throughout 2017, along with transiting Saturn in Sagittarius. I see this as downright remarkable. I always say that I don’t use astrology to predict the future. But, no one can go through this many difficult or harsh transits at the same time and not have it be a very dramatic time period in the person’s life. Some of his supporters claim that his critics (many of whom have been protesting for several days) are waiting for him to fail. Yet, on a purely astrological level, there is something quite ominous about all of these upcoming transits occurring simultaneously for him. Cancer is the comfort zone and for people with planets in Cancer, transiting Pluto in Capricorn has been destroying that comfort zone in order to expose certain inefficiencies. The only way Cancer-influenced people can survive now is acting from a place of real authority and power, instead of grabbing hold of the reins in a superficial or insincere manner.

The one thing I do want to advise is that this reminds us of the need for real compassion and acceptance. I do not stand for anyone being made to feel less than, unwelcome or unaccepted just because they look different or do not have the same background or nationality. The South Node is not just about bad habits to overcome. It is also about natural abilities to utilize. I think many things about this series of events and outcomes have awakened the basic empathy in many people. If not, then it needs to. Neptune in Pisces wants us to heal and sometimes, things have to get worse before they can get better. Suffering and sorrow can lead to a higher, wiser understanding. 

There are many people in the States who are feeling discouraged or disillusioned (both low-end Pisces feelings). My advice would be to remember that Neptune in Pisces wants us to have faith. Also, remember that the transiting North Node is in Virgo, meaning that the way for you to pull yourself out of that feeling of despair is to do the work needed in order to problem solve and achieve practical results. That is the balance that is required of this transit. If you do not sink too far into the Neptunian sense of sadness or being overwhelmed, you will see clearly enough to know what to do next to help a la North Node in Virgo. And many people will need your help.